Nothing Special

7:58pm: hey hey hey i will be 21 on friday!!!!!!!!

12:25pm: confusion
i dont why im so bad at reading people. i cant seem to figure this girl out, it boggles my mind how she can keep herself a secret from me, what is she not telling me? i wish i knew, i rarely do this but if anyone has any advice for me please let me know cuz im dyin to know whats going on, she hangs out with this guy mike alot and he spends the night, she doesnt wanna be alone? wondering why she does not call me instead, she is supposedly sick....hmmmm..but she will go play pool with this guy and other random things. sorry just venting cant seem to think straight i want to think my suspicions are wrong but why does she all of a sudden push me away and embrace others the way i feel she should embrace me? should i get out now? or should i stick around and risk my feelings getting hurt, she says she loves me, but i dont feel the same way and she knows this but how can i love someone who wont be true to me....and she says i look at her with accusing eyes. can you blame me at this point...????

rudi

1:01pm: my name is blah...blah
remember greg the bunny, yeah blah the vampire guy is the best, so much goin on alot of drama even florida has its flaws...

10:04am: derpa derpa derpa!!!!!!!!!!
im pretty tired, i would like to go to sleep but im stuck at work again, from 10-3. im looking forward to sleeping the day away when i get home.

7:30pm: my realization
well i have finally come around and realized that it is only fair to forgive tierney, although she was wrong to lie to me i am willing to let it go, she is right i shouldnt leave harrisburg hating her, i actually dont wanna leave with any bad blood between my friends, i am truly sorry for being such an asshole for the past year or two. so if you do read this, tierney, you are forgiven and i would love to be your friend again. sure that would take time but i am more than happy to accept you back, and i truly mean that, give me a call if you must, 395-3753. i would like to hear from you.

10:05am: now if youll excuse me im going home to put water in nate clelans mommas dish
dave chappelle quotes never get old -replaced the words buc nasty with nate cuz i hate him

so i went to "shock rock" for the first time last nite. yeah i know im a little late on discovering that place but i will say climbing up the rocks drunk is one hell of an adventure. i almost fell but as a drunk i have superb balance so it all worked out. now for those who dont know why shock rock has the title it does its for one simple reason, above the rock structure there is a telephone pole or some sort of pole (i dont quite remember i had double vision at the time)or some pole is very close to the rocks. i was with steve wydra and if i touched his hand i would automatically generate static electricity pretty neat i had no idea that would happen. so that was a great nite the only part that sucks about it was when i had to take my tent down and lug it back to the car which was a good half mile or more away and doing that hungover doesnt help, so it was 8 when i woke up, 9 when i got home to shower and what not, and now its 10 and im stuck at work. well its january 21 so im sadly countin the days till im outta here for good.

5:02pm: still at work bored, copied this outta maggies profile thing
*Would you support a ban on religious head-wear in public schools?: no
*What do you think about Paris Hilton?:probably carrying a bunch of vds

*Do you live in a city with a lot of Puerto Ricans?: yea i do

*Are you lazy?: oh yeah

*Do you sacrifice for your family?: i would do anything for them

*TV or Music?: i prefer to make music

*Which do you use more often, your microwave or your oven?: trying to learn my way around the kitchen so the oven

*Does your school use the cheap scratchy toilet paper?: i graduated 2 years ago

*What kind of wedding dress do you want?: a pretty pink one with flowers and a dinner jacket

*What do you think about childhood obesity?: fat fucks

*Do you trust your doctors?: no

*Do you like spicy foods?: i love em

*Is Harry Potter going to die at the end of the series?: hes gonna fuck that red head chick first before he does

*Is there an animal that you feel drawn to?: well im not drawn to animals but i like dogs

*Would you ever name your child Lucifer?:yeah sure

*Can you touch your eyeball?: just discovered i could

*Would you kill 10 million mice to save a random human?: no

*Do you like the smell of play-doh?: meh

*At a stoplight, do you inch forward when the other person does?: i usually run it

*Do you put your PopTarts in the microwave or the toaster?: yeah the toaster

*You think you could make it as a pop star?:i hate pop music

*Do you like giving advice?: no

*Do rats live in your attic?: dunno

*Do you play guitar?: yes

*Have you ever had a job working with animals?: no

*Are you offended by Eminem?: no 1st ammendment bitches

*Do you miss having naptime in kindergarten?: do i

*Are you emo?: nah

*When driving by roadkill, do you look at the animal or turn away?: look

*Do you miss the 90's?: nothing really good came out of the nineties

*Do you have nice teeth?: one crooked tooth

*Do the letters XXX remind you of hardcore porn, or the movie?: porn

*Do you think that being a Scientologist has negatively effected Tom Cruise's career?: it should hes a fucking retard pedofile

*If you could only have one child, which gender would you prefer to have?: boy

*Are you overly talkative?: no

*Does fire fascinate you?: yeah

*Is your toilet paper any color other than white?: just white

*Do you know what Objectivism is?: no, no i dont

*Would you like to live in a castle?: as long as i can have a moat with radioactive crocs in it

*Do you wish you had red hair?: no

*Is there a birdbath in your backyard?: no there is a cherry tree that i cut down back there

*Can you ignore an emotion?: im a guy what do you think

*Do you like to travel?: Yes.

*Did you believe in cooties when you were younger?: no my child hood friend was a girl

*Do you believe that there's life in outer space?: yeah

*Are you superstitious?: not really

*Do you share your bedroom with a sibling?: if i did i would kill myself

*Do you consider the word 'piss' to be offensive?: no fuck head

*Is your hand bigger than your face?: no

*Do you have a problem with guys wearing tight girl pants?: yeah i think that is pretty feminine

*Do you believe in astrology?: cant say i do

*Who is your favorite author?: mitch albom

*Do you like Invader Zim?: doom doom doom doom

*How many meals do you eat every day?: i just pick around the fridge when i get hungry

*What is more important - love or success?: girls love guys who are successful

*Is there a difference between being insecure and being shy?: i can be insecure and that might make me shy

*Have you bought any Seinfeld DVD's?: no

*Is it alright to be a redneck?: yes

*Do you have love handles?: there slowly dissappearing

*Have the most evil people in history come out of Europe?: some have and some have come from the US as well

*Do you drink soda with your breakfast?: if i had soda i probably would

*Are artists generally more liked and respected after they die?: yeah

*Are there a lot of rednecks in your town?: only in dauphin

*If you hear a bump in the night do you feel frightened?: no its usually my cats running around the house

*Does it make you racist if you hate all racists?: i am a racist at times sadly

*Do you enjoy time alone by yourself?: depends

*Have you ever been to a different continent?: no but i will travel the world someday

*Do you ever stay online so long that you forget to eat?: i only have access to a computer at work

*If you have ever pre-ordered a book or DVD online, what was the reason for pre-ordering? yes, because it was cheaper

*Is ska dead?: i dont like ska

*Is the card game UNO a game of luck or strategy?: i dont play uno

*Do you think Live 8 made any difference?: yes it convinced pink floyd to play together again

*Did tall people scare you when you were young?: i thought they were trees

*Do you enjoy the Discovery Channel?: only when im drunk

*Do you think it's weird that abortion is legal, but killing a pregnant woman is considered a double homicide?: to controversial for me to get into

*Is cheerleading a sport?: i do love cheerleaders

*Do you own both a dictionary and a thesaurus?: i have a really outdated dictionary somewhere

*Do either of your parents have a tattoo?:no

*Are you comfortable dancing in public?: i dont dance im white

*Do you think the US should apologize for slavery?: no they were dumb enough to follow us on the boats

*When you go on vacation, do you buy souvenirs for your friends?: fuck that shit

*Are you ashamed of being American?: no

*Is BET racist?: the comedy shows on that channel are funny as hell

*Have you ever had a computer virus?: more than likely

*Do you think bad girls want good guys?: how should i know im not a girl

*Do you think bad guys want good girls?: i look more at personality

*Do you watch the Andy Milonakis show?: that shit is funny

*Do you think Andy Milonakis is hot?: no

*Do you think Usher is hot?: again no

*What about Eminem?: once again no

*Chad Michael Murry?: who the hell is that

*Michael J. Fox?: last time no

*If you could only have one superpower, what would it be?: laser eyes

*Is fishing barbaric?: hell no

*Are you afraid of clowns?: ill fuck those god damn freaks up

*Are you getting sick of people quoting Napoleon Dynamite?: "im training to be a cage fighter"

*Would you have voted for Pedro?: i know over 8 pedros and they all be in jail

*Do you believe you are constantly changing?: i guess

*Does your family eat dinner together?: no

*Do you lift weights?: no

*Have you eaten an apple today?: no

*Do you have a lot of scars?: yeah

*Is school pretty much your social life?: i already graduated

*Do you twitch for no apparent reason?: yeah

*Is your best friend straight, bi, or gay?: straight

*Would you ever consider visiting the Space Needle in Seattle?: sure

*Do you have a very noticeable nervous habit?: i dunno

*Are Communists and Nazis really about the same thing?: maybe some views

*Does your computer chair spin?: yes in fact im spinning in it now

*Have you ever played Risk?: when i was drunk

*Can you play the piano?: somewhat

*Do you think it is bad luck to walk under a ladder?: not really superstitious you already asked me

*Which is worse - soccer moms or cheerleading mom?: cheerleading moms

*Which is better - duct tape or masking tape?: duct tape can fix anything

*Do you think the United States is dying?: hopefully not

*Have you ever been to the emergency room? not me personally but i have taken people there

*Are you scared of vampires?: i am a vampire

*Are you Greek?: in jr high i was considered a geek

*Are you good at poker?: i can play but im not good

*Do nice people really finish last?: depends

*Do you think you will die like Eleanor Rigby?: whos that and how did she die

*Can true art be defined?: iono

*Do you fear that Iraq is slowly becoming another Vietnam?: well we invaded by ourselves, not to help the pussy french out just so they can pull out

*Is your first name very common?: hell no

*Did the sixth Harry Potter book make you cry in the end?: what happened

*Would you like to have more or less siblings?: no more than the one i have now

*Are bisexuals just greedy?: what do you mean by greedy

*When your mother had you, was she younger or older than 25?: dont know

*Do you think the cities in the U.S. will look like Gotham city in the future?: that would be sick

*Is it ignorant to never read a book?: i dont read but i have a college reading level

*Do you think you can become addicted to second-hand smoke?: i smoke regularly

*Would you want to run Willy Wonka's chocolate factory?: id be that fat kid eating out of the chocolate river

*Do you throw things when you get mad?: no

*Must one be cruel to be kind?: no

*Would you ever buy a book just to make yourself look intelligent?: no

*Do you own a Tiffany lamp?: no

*Are puzzles a waste of time?: yes

*Has a dentist ever given you laughing gas?: no

*Do you prefer rice or potatoes with your meals?: depends

*Is it about winning or losing, or how you play the game? how you play the game

*Do you enjoy reading?: no

*Do you ever confuse left with right?: no

*Do you ever confuse wrong with right?: always

*Do you have more physical or emotional scars?: physical

*Do you ever wear patriotic clothing?: no cant say i do

*Which capital city do you prefer - London or Washington DC?:washington dc

*Do you pity people that lie with no shame?:i dunno

*Which do you own more pairs of - underwear or socks?: both

*Do you think you could make a good leader of your country?: not really

*Do you watch Nickelodeon?: no

*Do your friends act depressed all the time?: i dont really pay attention to my friends feelings

*Do you have any piercings?: no

*Did you see Fahrenheit 9/11?: yes

*What movie soundtracks do you own?:none

*Which Disney baby is cuter: Bambi or Dumbo?: there animated drawings who gives a fuck

*Do you ever dream about celebrities?: no

*Do you believe in the concept of an eye for an eye?: maybe

*When you first meet someone, are you quick to judge them?: no but they are quick to judge me

*Do you automatically give people respect if they are older than you, or do you make them earn it?: automatically only if they are senior citizens middle aged people let there stupidity show more often

*Do you wear a Livestrong bracelet?: what the hell is that

*Do you have a lisp?: im not gay

*Do you think that Bush is power hungry?: he probably thinks that power hungry is an energy bar

*Do you want it all?: no

*Is jail really a punishment in today's world?: not if your a criminal looking for somewhere to stay

*Do you think cooking shows are entertaining?: nay

*Do you think Natalee Holloway will ever be found?: no shes in my backyard under the chopped down cherry tree - yeah i know thats fucked up but i find humor in insult to injury

*If someone studies Wicca, would you refer to them as a Wiccan or a Witch?: wow they have no lives

*Are you addicted to Halo 2?:that game is fucking awesome

*Do you like pinball machines?: yes

*Do you use your thumb while typing?: just for the space bar

*Which Simpson sister is of lesser intelligence - Ashlee or Jessica?: there both retards

*Is Lisa the smartest Simpson of them all?: technically yes

*Do you like Shakespeare?: i do enjoy shakespeare

*Do you like to push the cart at the grocery store?: yeah

*Did you like this survey?: long

4:02pm: what can i say about that suit that hasnt already been said about afghanistan
so after about 3 years of waiting im finally out of harrisburg on febuary 1st. although im not really looking forward to leaving. it has been fun but i only desire to get to florida so i can get back in school and move out of my parents house. i really dont like being 20 years old and still living there, but as soon as i graduate im out of their care for good, i dont plan to go back for quite sometime. what am i majoring in well ive finally had a little direction come my way and ive decided to go into firefighting so yes i will be a firefighter someday, id rather help save lives than sit at a fucking desk all god damn day yeah im more hands on these days so hopefully everything works over ok. i wont have to worry about any student loans because my parents were gracious enough to pay for it so i am extremely thankful for that. after i do move out i will either end up in new york or colorado just to get a few states away from the rents. but peace out bitches and good bye to my buds and fuck all the people (which there are very few) i hate.


-rudi sokol III

IM RICK JAMES BITCH!!!!!

8:02am: no subject
Finals are here once again and im already prepared, hopefully i do well. right now, just getting some projects done so i can relax for a little while. i start serving at docs soon and that will be alot of fun. we are moving to florida soon, our house is starting to get built now, but it shouldnt be done until octoberish or something like that. i really cant wait until classes are over because i am not going to take classes over the summer or anything like that just because i dont really want to. the wine store is closing soon so i no longer will be working at the mall, but ill still act like i own the place and get mad employee discounts just because i can, thats also why im working at docs alot more with servin and stuff once july rolls around it will be one year that i have been working there. time flies, but now im off to do my project...

wish me luck.

-rudi

12:13am: woo hoo christmas
my christmas was fuckin terrible, i spent it driving to florida and being in a cramped car and me in my cranky mood do not mix well at all oh well at least i have lots of money for my acoustic guitar, i cant wait to shop for that

peace


rudi

7:35pm: yayy hacc is over for a little while. i go back on the 13th of january hahaha, such a long vacation. docs is having the whole staff take a piss test, ill pass with out a problem its nothing all i have to do is drink alot of water and take nyison. yeah i spelled it wrong, i also quit smoking cigarettes. its been about a week now so thats cool.

-rudi

12:22pm: 3 outta 4 finals are completed all i have to do is type up my take home final do my mini theatre project and hand the shit in and im gone bitches


woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-rudi

2:06am: im fucking drunkl
yo im real fucking drunk and shit
so imma take more shots dammit
what the hell is going on?
one of my screen names is the don
there is a kitten on my lap
whos house am i at
i dont even know
what the fuck
im so drunk
so i say
have a good day
whaddya say
im so drunk
hopefully i dont die

2:02pm: damn...
wow these days have been pretty fucked up. i finally got caught with pot and my parents were not even mad at me. i found that surprising. my dad wants it legalized, and he even said he might start again if it is legalized, but then at the same time im being threatened to get kicked out if it continues, go figure. they even know that i smoke cigarettes now, they didnt seem to care. another fucked up thing, my disk broke my 3 1/2 floppy fucked up and wouldnt load all the papers i had to do so i was able to hand in 4 out of the 6 because two of them were fucked up. you had no idea how pissed i was. what else oh it turns out ben doesnt wanna kill me now because he thinks maggie is using me to get back at him. so his stubborn fat ass even apologized to me, which i was expecting to begin with. i also talked to maggie and she also gave me her side of the whole story, if you want the whole story call me cuz its too long to type and im in a rush anyway. but i have more gay research to do so later on...

-rudi

1:47pm: math class is too fucking long...
what up to everyone who reads this,

like the title says, math class is too fucking long. i had to sit through 2 hours of shit that i already knew. that class is so easy too because i got an 82 on my test and thats the only grade we have.
anyways nothing new happened to me thats exciting. work yesterday was cool cuz jess came in and we talked for about my whole shift which is 6 hours long. then justin apples came over and stayed until i closed along with jess and i. we had some fun talks and we are trying to get everyone together to hand out and stuff. wow i just realized there is no one online to talk to, what a bummer. katelyn is havin a bonfire at her crib in the next few weeks so imma catch that and just keep doin what im doin school, work, party. hopefully i have something to tell everyone next time. oh yeah whoever posted as anonymous in my last entry about how kerry sucks. i agree but bush is just and will always be a douche and this country might be in danger with him in office for another term.

i can only hope that peace will come to us yet again

Rudi

3:21pm: Fuck Bush Day-Americas new holiday
well the day has finally come...Election Day,and i finally get to make my voice heard and im going to vote that fuck up Bush out of office. im off to the polls now and i cant wait for the results of this election. otherwise im doin real well, katelyn is havin a bonfire at her place in the next few weeks so im gonna hit that up, halloween party was fun, except for the driving to linglestown in the fog situation, alden and mike were with me, we had a fun and dangerous trip. well im off to vote now

peace out

Kerry/Edwards Truth for a change...

-Rudi

4:23pm: hmph...
hey hey hey whaddya say? well im at school right now and im probably gonna type more in this thing rather than kill myself with smoking cigarettes.
for starters maggie got one of these live journal thingys so if anyone wants to read hers ask her what her user name is i already forgot. speaking of maggizzle her and i blazed last night... too much fun. we went to taco bell afterwards and ate lots of food. schools goin well i got an 82 on my math test and i despise math so im happy with that

even though this is off subject my last entry was not supposed to make tierney look like a bitch due to popular belief that was not what i was goin for, everyone would know if i did. so yeah thats it for now



peace

-rudi

4:45pm: recent bullshit
well just for the latest update...yeah. nothing new happened to me recently except that Tierney and I broke up...matters, i dont care anymore, it bothered me for a couple of days but its been over a month now and its like i never dated her to begin with. i try to communicate with her still but she never really calls back or seems to want to so i just stopped caring.
Enough about that useless bullshit though, i have been trying to hook up with other girls and stuff but no one is really worth my time, except for two people, katelyn and jess c. i would like to date them, not really be serious, the whole tierney thing pretty much drew me away from a serious relationship period, but at the same time i miss it. i dont see katelyn enough to even begin to try, but i see jess all the time now and i guess im just sort of drawn to her. i dont expect anything to happen but i like talkin to her at work, she comes and keeps me company if i close and she does not. im out now though i have class in an hour


rudi

11:26pm: shit, ass, motherfucker, bitch, bastard, etc.
word up everyone who reads this. which i guess is not to many, i figured i would update this thing because it has been a while since i did.
for starters tierney and i seem to be working well, i love her to death and i enjoy every minute with her whether we are doing something or not, it does not matter to me as long as i am chillin with her. i also enjoy teasing her alot, you know makin fun of her, not taking her side on convos with her mom, (haha your dad not thinking your good at soft ball) and you know that kinda shit. she hates it sometimes, but i love every minute of it. her parents are cool too, and her brother, i like everyone in her family, i actually feel comfortable hanging around them. i have been having her come over alot to my house so my parents get used to her being around alot, and hopefully not bother us. my mother especially because she checks on us every two fucking minutes. my dad does not give a shit he just keeps telling me to use protection haha. thats all i ever hear whenever him and i talk about her. well im gonna go now cuz im tired and shit... maybe ill talk again over the summer

-rudi

i still love you tierney

12:09am: myself
well i guess i should tell a little bit about myself, even though thats not how people usually get to know me. for starters i consider myself to be a shy person when it comes to expressing any emotion, or at least that is what i am told. no i dont have emotional problems and im not crazy its just that i dont really see a need to talk about myself to others its just something i dont do.

anyway on to more of me introducing myself, i am 18 years old just graduated from highschool and i am currently in a relationship as of now. now for people who do know me that is a shocker because out of my whole group i always seemed to be the one that had alot of girls that were friends but never seemed to hook up with any of them. that has been one of the only things i regretted about my whole time during highschool. i guess i was just lonely and dumb shit like that. what sucks is the possibility of me moving down to florida, i dont like it down there and even though most of my friends are taking off to college in the fall, like myself eventually, i dont really want to leave them behind and i especially dont want to leave my girlfriend tierney behind. even though she probably does not believe me i mean it when i say that she is one of the most important things in my life right now, it sucks that i didnt realize this sooner. she is a great person with a good heart and she truly cares about me which (this may sound odd, but remember where im comin from) really surprises me. remember i have only had one relationship before her and that was a thousand years ago and the feelings i have for tierney are more then i can explain. so im not going to try, too much work for my brain.
i also like hanging out with my friends and i also enjoy playing hackey sack, playing video games, making videos of my friends and i doin stupid shit, sneaking out in the middle of the night and causing trouble, the list goes on but im to lazy to type all that...maybe some other time...but dont count on it.
well that is about it for tonight i dont really care to type much more...

-rudi

i love you tierney

8:16pm: This is my first entry. I have nothing to say at this time.



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